Month: July 2024

Welcome back, dearest readers!

Okay, so I could not let any more time pass without mentioning the latest and heinous garbage the very compromised “Supreme” Court has allowed to pass.

You will have to forgive the rambling of this post, too, by the way.

Not gonna mince words with this one, as the title suggests, since yes, the “Supreme” Court (and I put Supreme in quotes as I certainly question their true authority and common sense in making these decisions) – has pulled some BS yet AGAIN!

Oh and please check out my previous Roe v. Wade post below:

And if you don’t know what I am talking about, then let me quickly catch you up to speed:

The SCOTUS (Supreme Court of the United States) decided to essentially give tRump, aka the Orange Shitler, immunity from prosecution if his acts are considered of an “official” nature, although that immunity is supposed to extend to current and future Presidents, as well.

In other words, SCOTUS is handing The Orange Shitler the power to get away with whatever he wants to do, even though it is “presumptive” that he has immunity from criminal prosecution.

In my opinion, it goes back to his statement way back in early 2016 when he mumbled “I could stand in the middle of Fifth Avenue and shoot somebody, and I wouldn’t lose any voters.”

DISGUSTING for a then-Presidential candidate to think, let alone even let roll out of his lying, hate-spewing mouth!! 

And now, with this latest SCOTUS ruling, I suppose tRump can LITERALLY do it now and yes, get away with it.

But then again, President Joe Biden should be able to do the same thing, RIGHT?

However, we all know the SCOTUS decision is slanted towards Orange Shitler. And gee, now why in the world would Fake Tan Fat Ass need such a ruling or even need immunity from prosecution? Hmmm…

I also wish to convey that there would be no need to even uphold such a ruling if certain former occupiers of the White House were above reproach, which they are not.

As far as I am concerned, SCOTUS is saying the Orange Shitler IS GUILTY!!! Well, he is now a convicted felon, so there is that. And yet, he still remains on the ballot! 🤬🤬🤬 Another repulsive first in American history.

We all know that this is designed to give him the ability to take revenge on all of his enemies if he returns to the White House.

Is there a connection to our/my mental health?? You bet your mental imbalance it is!!!

People are now EXTREMELY terrified if NuHitler returns to occupy the White House! And they should be. This is absolutely unheard of, a very dismal first in our sad and pathetic American history, which by the way is hanging from a fragile thread as it is.

My mental health has been fragile as it is, but now I feel like my OCD is off the charts. My mind is racing with catastrophic thinking, now more than ever. I am anxious and scared; however, I am not what I would say depressed. I mean, I still go on. I don’t think I have a flat affect. I probably have more of a scowl on my face, though. 😂🤣😁

Oh and I have not even delved into Project 2025, which now that I am thinking about it, may just end up being another post. But in the meantime, LOOK IT UP!! (if you haven’t already)

Personally, I feel that the proverbial rug has been pulled out from underneath my already wobbly legs in light of this horrendous and very corrupt SCOTUS decision. If that thing – the Orange-wannabe-dictator Herr Shitler gets back into the Oval Office, he will virtually have unchecked powers to do whatever he wants to do! Not to mention setting him up to be the dictator he has always dreamt of being.

And so, yeah, mentally I, and scores and scores of other Americans, are not doing well at the moment. Hell, there are other countries who are horrified by the SCOTUS act.

Our democracy and rights are being stripped away bit by bit. First Roe v. Wade and now this. And I am quite sure there is more to come.

And a federal court judge in Florida also just dismissed the documents case against Fat Boy as well! 🤬🤬🤬

By the way, I will not be discussing the most recent “assassination” attempt on that thing, because I truly believe it was staged. But moving on….

I am truly sickened and grieved and disgusted. I fear for our country, our democracy, and for all of us.

That’s it for now. Before you depart, please check out my Derek Store below.

Okay, rant over. Please return next time when the topic will be did I inherit my OCD from my grandmother (I apologize in advance as these posts were out of order).

But until then, please keep your head held high, stay safe, don’t give up hope, and by all means, stay mentally well.

DEREK’S DISCLAIMER:  I am not a medical professional, neither am I giving any medical or legal advice. If you are seeking help from a doctor or an attorney, please consult said professionals.  These are my personal thoughts and feelings on the subjects discussed, and my blog is my own personal experiences and journey with mental imbalance.  Thanking you in advance!

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Good Day, my friends!

Today I am discussing what happens when your mind gets stuck in a loop of intrusive and bothersome thoughts.

Lately, I have been talking about OCD and the rabbit hole of intrusive thinking, etc. So, I figured it was just natural to have a convo about what it feels like when you think the same thought over and over and yet over again. It is truly sickening.

Also, please click on the banner below to catch a glimpse of my most recent post about the rabbit hole.

It is all related, what I have been elaborating on, with regard to intrusive thinking and going down the rabbit hole of horrible thoughts, especially catastrophic thinking, etc.

Maybe it starts with something you see on television, something terrible in the news, for example. This time I’ll use the nuclear war example.

That lame-ass mofo Vladimir Putin says he’s going to blow the United States to Kingdom Come if he doesn’t get his way, especially with regard to Ukraine. Blah. Blah. Blah. And blah.

But then you start GOING DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE of WHAT IF he does follow through with his lame threat? After all, you have been hearing all about the END OF THE WORLD, and/or the Bible and Revelations and the END TIMES, and NOSTRADAMUS’s predictions, etc., etc. and etc.

So, your mind latches onto this thought of WHAT IF it finally happens this time. And oh shit! I DO live in a major U.S. city like New York or Atlanta or L.A. or Miami or Dallas or you know, just a big-ass metropolitan city.

You start thinking about hearing it on the news that Russia has gone and done it and launched a first strike.

This is it. This is the end. Well, in your mind anyway.

In your mind, you see and hear the people panicking and running in the streets. You think about seeing the bright light right before it all ends.

Or maybe you think WHAT IF you survive this catastrophe?

You think about how you will probably NEVER see your loved ones and friends ever again.

You are all alone, perhaps like Mr. Henry Bemis (the wonderful Burgess Meredith) from the Twilight Zone episode, “Time Enough at Last.”

You imagine the radiation eventually making you sick. You lose your hair. You lose weight because the food is now contaminated. You don’t have access to clean water, and the air certainly isn’t clean.

You’re a goner.

And think about how this goes on and on and on in your mind all the time now, day in and day out. Every single day this thought crosses your mind. In one horrific, terrible LOOP.

It is like a sick tape or recording that you just cannot shut off. It SUCKS, too! Because you feel out of control and that you cannot stop it.

This is called rumination, which again, I discussed in my rabbit hole post. So, begging your pardon if I am repeating myself. But this is vitally important for me (and others) to get an understanding of why this happens.

So, let’s see if we can find out what causes this ruminating.

I hate to say this, but nobody really knows what causes this. All I can tell you is that the ruminating is a subset of – WAIT FOR IT – OCD!!

And underlying anxiety, depression, and even phobias are some of the main culprits of causing your mind to go into this endless loop.

Also, my new favorite for us catastrophic thinkers – the UNCERTAINTY of life itself!!

Maybe by ruminating we feel we can control the outcome of said event or catastrophic thought.

Or maybe we are just trying to understand why we are thinking what we are thinking. I know this is part of my big problem with my own looping. I am forever trying to understand why I am thinking that terrible thought.

But it never works. You will forever be STUCK in this LOOP of frightful bullshit if you try to figure out your own thoughts and mind!

In the ruminating, you are trying to understand the how’s and the why’s of the looping. You feel that if you think about it long and hard enough, you’ll find the answers as to why and, therefore, be able to stop it.

However, that is not how it works.

You see, the more you ruminate or give in to the loop, the more bothersome the thoughts become. In other words, they will just keep coming back like some annoying gnat or fly.

As a matter, many experts say to not even try to stop the thoughts!

At any rate, all of this excessive thinking, ruminating, looping can create a great deal of anxiety, depression, and turmoil within the sufferer.

How to stop or at least manage the looping thoughts.

It boils down to telling yourself that your thoughts are just, well thoughts. They have no basis in fact or reality, even if it is something that could possibly happen.

You have to learn to tell yourself that you are safe, no matter what. That nothing bad is happening to you or will happen to you.

Your thoughts cannot hurt you!!

And most importantly, breathe.

And again, if necessary seek treatment.

Or you can check out some CBD products at the Derek Store, which might be helpful in helping you to relax and reduce your anxiety. Click below!

Thank you, as always, for stopping by. Please return next week when the topic will be the Supreme Court!! That’s right. The “Supreme” Court. So, you KNOW it’s gonna be a dilly! LOL

Until then, please be safe and MENTALLY WELL!!!

DEREK’S DISCLAIMER:  I am not a medical professional, neither am I giving any medical or legal advice. If you are seeking help from a doctor or an attorney, please consult said professionals.  These are my personal thoughts and feelings on the subjects discussed, and my blog is my own personal experiences and journey with mental imbalance.  Thanking you in advance!

I do not own the copyright to any songs or videos listed here. 

AFFILIATE DISCLAIMER:  There are products on this page.  By clicking on the links, you will be redirected to that page at no cost to you.  However, I will receive compensation if you purchase something (which I hope you do 😊).